Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with the pain. But you can get through this. First by becoming aware. Recognize and admit to yourself that you are having suicidal thoughts. Then remove the means to act on these thoughts. Get rid of any pills, guns knives or even the keys of your car. Next remove the opportunity by being around others. Practice self care; eat and get enough rest. Identify what’s important to you and make a list of your strengths and the positive things in your life. If none of this work wait and let someone know. Choose to live. Fight to survive. It will be hard but you can do it. No excuses!